Picture Taken By Me - I LOVE staring up at the sky
Today I'm Grateful For:
*For the beautiful view in my neighborhood
*For the girl time with PC
*For the many blessings upon me
*Peace of mind
On Saturday: PC was hurting, because of a misunderstanding between her and A (her guy friend). I wanted to grab her and hide her from the world, but I knew that was not the answer. We talked about everything and with all my might I tried to get her to laugh. I succeeded, but not as much as I wanted to. I told her to be honest and ask him the question she needed an answer to. She did and found out she misunderstood him the first time. I saw her smile again and my heart returned to my body. I don't honestly know If I can handle this dating thing. Even though it was a misunderstanding a huge part of me wanted to bash his face in. I can not react or feel this way each time she hurts. I want to wrap my baby in a protective shield and keep her away from boys - Forever! But, I know that would not help neither of us in any way. I'm seriously praying on it and asking God for guidance, because when it comes to my princess Mama is kind of crazy. :)
On Sunday: I awoke to PC laughing and singing to music. That was awesome! After we all had gotten dressed we headed out to Wal-Mart to grocery shop. For the first year and a half after hurricane Katrina I developed a very bad "tick." When we went grocery shopping I would over buy every item on my list. We are just a family of three, so for the month we only need $50 worth of meat not including fish. I would buy $120 or more woth of meat. We'd have canned goods and toilet paper lining every shelf I could fine. They said I was suffering from "Post Traumatic Syndrome." After the first year I noticed we were getting rid of tons of meat that had gone bad, so I tried very hard to curb my behavior. On my own I did ok, but was still over spending, so I went to a therapist. Talking to her helped me release that fear that I had bottled away right after the storm. I went into survival mode and hadn't come out until I saw the therapist.
She suggested I started writing a list as I did before the storm and sticking to what I had on it. The list and learning to "let go and let God" worked miracles! Why did I tell you this? Because yesterday armed with my list I came out of Wal-Mart prouder than I had felt in a long time. I went in with $300 and came out with $71 remaining!! I hunted down sale items and got only what was on the list. This month makes a solid 1 1/2 years that I have shopped without fear of Katrina. I no longer fear losing things. I trust in The Father and He has healed me in more ways than I can explain.
The Day I Chose Bliss God Started My Healing & I'm Forever Grateful