Depending On God [5.29.12]

"No one can serve two masters. For you will hate one and love the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.
--Matthew 6:24 

I have been facing an issue for a few years now, but I've been suppressing it so that I did not have to look it in the eye.  Over the past year events in my life have been showing me that God needed my full attention in this matter.  In my heart of hearts, deep in my spirit and in the front of my mind I want and desire to fully depend on God.  But in many ways I have been depending more on money and my own abilities.  I know God wants (desires and delights) in taking care of us.  He excites in his children surrendering and patiently depending on His ability above our own.  I was guilty of this and in many ways knew it, but tried to deny it.

Daily I pray (believing) that I will be more like Jesus and NOTHING like this world.  In order for that to manifest in my life I must fully rely and depend on God in EVERY area of my life.  I was relying on money to make the way instead of God, which is why the money never lasted and I still was filled with complete worry and constant fear.  Now I truly understand that trusting in God is THE WAY and it chases away all doubt, fear or worry.  I have decided to walk in complete faith with God.  I understand that this means I am giving up my ego and depending on God alone.  I also understand that I am now filled with a peace I've never known.

I tell you the truth not knowing the future is scary, but I KNOW the shepherd.  I know that with Him I will never want nor lack one thing in my life.  Will there be obstacles?  Of course there will be!  But I no longer have to fear them for He will be with me.  He has the answers and the solutions to everything Satan brings my way. He is The Answer.  Everything we need individually and as a family is just a breath away.  A few words to God spoken in faith can instantly change your situation and your life.  Fully serve and depend on God and watch him move in your life in supernatural ways.  Free yourself from Satan's blinding hold on your life.  Trust God and let Jesus fill your life with his unfailing love and light.  You will never regret it.

Father God, I'm grateful:

-For every blessing and lesson you'll rain upon us
-You are about to show us/me the true meaning to "living & relying on God"
-You love & care for me far more than the birds and the flowers
-Your peace, joy, wisdom and truth are in me growing & expanding astronomically!  

Spirit Filled Sunday

“The past is gone, the future is not yet here, and if we do not go back to ourselves in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with life.”
― Thich Nhat Hanh

A Lesson From Trees [5.24.12]

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But the godly will flourish like palm trees and grow strong like the cedars of Lebanon.
-Psalm 92:12

Even as a child I was strongly fascinated with trees.  Growing up in Louisiana I was blessed to see and touch huge oak trees.  There was something majestic about them.  Right after hurricane Katrina I mourned that I would never see them on a daily basis.  There are lovely trees in San Antonio, but none like the oak trees I grew up with.

Over the past seven years my fascination with trees has grown tremendously.  Every day I open the blinds to my bedroom window and look in awe of the huge masterful trees before me.  But lately clarification has come as to why I adore trees as I do.  Trees remind me of Jesus!

Think about it.  Trees deal with so much pertaining to various weather conditions.  Through rough winters, blistering heat, pouring rain and harsh winds they never become uprooted.  They may lose branches, but they never become uprooted.  Jesus was laughed at, spat on, skin ripped from his body, he was tortured and murdered.  Through all of this He NEVER became uprooted.  Like the tree Jesus did not depend on his own ability, but He completely relied on the ability of the Father who sent him for you and I.

Like He did for both the tree and Jesus God the Father wants to be your strength in the various weather conditions of life.  He wants you to know you can rest in His loving arms and find true peace and security.  All he asks is that you release yourself from the vain idea that YOU are in control.  He's yearning for you and I to fully depend on Him and believe that He is the answer to every situation.  We should completely depend on His abilities and never just our own.

It's amazing what God can teach you if you'll just open your heart, your mind, and a window.  I now understand that if I fully rely on God and follow Jesus like the palm trees and cedars of Lebanon I will most definitely flourish.

Living The Content Life

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In a state of peaceful happiness.

Satisfy (someone).

  1. A state of satisfaction: "the greater part of the century was a time of content".
  2. The things that are held or included in something.

For years I'd heard that word, but was not very familiar with it in my own life.  I took for granted what we had or could get.  Not that we have much, but we have enough.  Recently the word content has been resonating in my mind on a daily basis and now I'm about to put action to my words.  I'm working on building my trust with God.  I believe that he can/will provide for us, but every now and then a twinge of fear wells up in me.  I'm determined to kill that fear and leave it at the cross.

How will I achieve this?  Well, I've already started by eliminating a few bills.  I've downgraded our cell phone package and our cable.  I'm saving all of our loose change while saving paper money as well.  We will no longer be eating out EXCEPT on special occasions (birthdays ONLY).  We will be buying only the necessities for our home.

We recently found a ninety-nine cent store near by that sells EVERYTHING.  They sell produce, canned goods, house cleaning supplies, toiletries and much more for .99!  I went there and stocked up on toothpaste, soap, dish-washing liquid, canned goods, seasonings and toilet paper.  This will be our go to store for those needs.

We are learning to be content with what we have and believe that God will provide.  So many families are starving in America and we all are living in excess.  The change that we save at the end of each year will be used to purchase non-perishable food items and donate to our local food bank.  It's all about simplifying your life in hopes of helping enrich the lives of others.  At least it is for us and we're content with our decisions.   --God Bless


Know that wherever you go the Kingdom of God, 
heavenly angels and the Love of Jesus Christ
surrounds you.

In Jesus Christ You Are:

-approved  -appointed  -chosen  -loved  -redeemed
-beautiful  -kind  -merciful -at peace  -accepted  
-provided for  -healed  -forgiven  -guided  -prayed for
-a child of God  -blessed  -favored

Mother's Day 2012

Yesterday (Mother's Day) my Princess Charlie cooked this fabulous dinner for me.  I was overwhelmed with joy and it was the BEST dinner ever!!!
I am truly one blessed woman to have such a loving and kind child.
It was the perfect Mother's Day!!

Spirit Filled Sunday

“When we are mindful, deeply in touch with the present moment, our understanding of what is going on deepens, and we begin to be filled with acceptance, joy, peace and love.”
― Thich Nhat Hanh
Father, today I am grateful:
-For your gentle love and kind mercy
-Peace and Holy Spirit flows through every room
-Blessings gently fall upon us
-Every need we had you met this last week
-We can look forward to you meeting our needs this week as well
-YOU are who YOU said you'd always be

My Truth #2

This is my sweet baby boy Jasper.  Jasper has been a member of this family for six years (this October).  I've known many dogs in my life, but none like Jasper.  When he made one he started doing something without ever being trained.  When I'm home I get around using my office chair or scooter.  Whenever I'm about to leave my room to go to the kitchen or bathroom Pooh (Jasper) goes to my hubby or daughter to inform them I need assistance.  We NEVER taught him that!  He's also VERY (overly) protective of his mommy.

This may sound weird to some, but to those who are loving pet owners you'll totally get it.  I believe because of my disability God uses Pooh in assisting me.  He loves my hubby tremendously.  He can not sleep without princess Charlie.  But everyone who knows us (including our vet) notices that his love for me is more intense and holy.  This dog looks at me differently than anyone else, he kisses me differently and his devotion is way different.  I wish I could plainly convey to you what I'm trying to describe, but I think to fully understand it you'd have to see it.

Again, this may sound weird, but this is what I believe. I believe God spends tons of time with me through my Pooh.  I once heard a pastor say that dog's don't have spirits.  I FULLY disagree with that.  If you could see how Jasper is with me then you'd disagree as well.  I always say he shows me what God's love looks like every single day.  I never have to ask what God's love looks like!  His love is intense, true, pure, holy, real, good, unconditional, forever, unfailing, enduring, endearing, warm, simple, and laced with joy and peace.  I see this everyday.  Every time Pooh awakens God's love is ever present and how sweet it is to be loved by them both!!

Letting Go and Letting God [5.9.12]

“Because you are alive, everything is possible.”
― Thich Nhat Hanh

Fear has been my go to comfort blanket for far too many years.  I've been (with all my might) learning to "let go and let God."  As I'm doing this fear insists on chiming in but I refuse to listen.  God asks that we have faith like little children.  When a child has a situation they go to their parent and state what's needed, parent says "I'll take care of it," and the child leaves it there.  I'm leaving all situations at the feet of my Father.  I trust and believe that He can answer all of my questions.  I believe all of His ways are the right ones.

Go to God with ALL of your problems, worries or fears.  Lay them at His feet and praise Him.  Your faith in Him will be just what He wants.  He will be all that you need.  Our Father says with Him NOTHING is impossible.  Believe that!

I Believe and I Receive:

-God is still on the throne
-He is the orchestrator of our lives
-He will never lead us astray
-Goodness and Mercy shall follow us ALL the days of our lives
-Every situation is temporary
-Every answer we need the Father has and will reveal them in the knick of time

Spirit Filled Sunday

Photo taken by my hubby

“When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help. That's the message he is sending.” 
― Thich Nhat Hanh

Father, I'm Grateful:

-We have a new day to practice being aware of your presence
-For all blessings we'll experience today
-Peace of soul(mind), body and spirit is now a way of life for me
-I can flow through this earth knowing YOU are the orchestrator
-We can trust the orchestrator ABOVE all others

My Truth #1 [5.3.12]

Photo taken by Tabitha D
He will cover you with His feathers.  He will shelter you with his wings.  His faithful promises are your armor and protection.  -Ps 91:4

So much has been going on in my life and although I journal daily I was lead by the Spirit to share this here.  I'm going to call it "My Truths" and hopefully these posts will be eye opening or even healing for someone.  I believe when good things happen in my life they should be shared.  I love reading stories of miracles (big or small) in others lives.

Since I was 14 I was on medications for ulcers in my stomach.  As I got older many things took place, which left my state of health sort of funky.  I developed anxiety and asthma.  Later was diagnosed with COPD.  I never smoked a day in my life!  But, I now believe it was my environment and mental state that played a roll as well.

After hurricane Katrina I developed severe anxiety attacks.  I was placed on a medication called "Ativan," which I became dependent on.   After giving my life to God in 08' I decided it was time to walk away from ativan, but my fear didn't allow that to happen.  It wasn't until 2010 with God's guidance I was able to flush the ativan.  It was the most painful weekend ever!  My body hurt so badly.  I could barely sit up straight, but Sunday morning came and I awoke brand new!  I had no desire to take medications of "any" sort!

I've been faithfully walking with God for 4 years now and I can honestly say not only did he get me off of ativan I no longer need Nexium, Albuterol or Symbicort!  The nexium was for acid reflux.  The Albuterol and Symbicort were for severe asthma.  All symptoms left my body in 2010!  I tell everyone 2010 was a supernatural year for me!  But, even now 2012 is proving to be the same in many more ways.

I'm not speaking of magic here.  I am also not saying I wished these things away and they were gone.  I'm saying quit plainly that God healed me.  He took away my need for those medications.  I did NOT take myself off of them.  I was slowly taken off by my doctor once he realized what I was saying was true.  I had been healed!

Healing in any form is NOT just for me.  It can happen for any of God's children.  All you have to do is call on Jesus and believe that with God NOTHING is impossible.  The ONLY 2 things God can not do is lie or change.  I don't know what you're healing will look or feel like, but I can guarantee that if you give him a chance he'll show you his unfailing love.  I'm standing in agreement with you for your healing be it mental, physical or spiritual.  Jesus said, "Be not afraid, only believe."

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