The picture above depicts what I felt like this morning. A conversation invaded my mind once again, but this time it left me feeling *Hurt.* For the record I do NOT believe in Luck, however, I totally and completely believe in Blessings. I believe that when we step outside of our comfort zones and reach out to others in need (as God does and desires us to do) we receive his blessings. Whether they are Big or Small they are his way of saying "Good Job."
The other day I was told by someone I love to death that I am too lucky. I replied "Luck has nothing to do with it. I am simply being blessed." Then, I was told "well you are too damned blessed then."
This stung me really hard, because: 1. It was mean, 2. I look up to the person who said it and 3. Its totally untrue!
Why shouldn't I be rewarded by The Father? Why should anyone feel that I am NOT deserving of His blessings?
I AM DESERVING!! I AM!!
I LOVE what I do and the fact that my hubby, daughter and our supporters are with me makes it even better. I wake up everyday planning how I'm going to make someone smile. I go to bed thinking of ideas for the next day. I do this first because HE placed it into my heart. Its what HE desires me to do! Secondly, I simply LOVE doing it. It keeps me smiling and healthy. I'm at TOTAL Peace when I am creating for others.
It is NOT my fault that hubby has a job that provides for us - That's A Blessing
It is NOT my fault that we are good at saving as best we can - It helps us survive
It is NOT my fault that I love reaching out to others instead of focusing on myself - HE Created Me This Way!
This post is so different from what I normally would put up here, but my heart is hurting and I needed to get it out and let it GO. Thank You for reading and understanding.
i understand...and sometimes i think that it may be just misplaced anxiety or jealousy rather than actually believing that. we have had others say that to us...honestly, you can't be too "lucky" or too blessed, so smile and go ahead and keep passing along those blessings!
ReplyDeleteStand Tall because of your blessings. Don't let anyone make you ashamed of what God has done for you!
ReplyDeleteVisiting to your blogs
ReplyDeleteKeep on Keeping on! It is as simple as that. Let it roll off your back like water off of a duck. When you are true to yourself many people who are insecure will attempt to rip you for who you are. Understand where they are coming from and understand that their thoughts do not change you unless you let them.
ReplyDeleteThere is no such thing as being too blessed. You deserve every blessing because you also give blessings everywhere you go. May your blessings multiply even more. :)
ReplyDeleteTabitha,
ReplyDeleteYou are so dear and such a lovely soul. Don't let anyone take away your sparkle and shine. Remember that those barbs were sent by someone who is jealous of you, insecure, and hurting. That is why he/she spoke harshly because they truly feel badly about themselves and/or where they are in life right now. In the spirit of the Father and Christ, let us send prayers and blessings their way for healing. And for forgiveness all around.
Just be YOU. Shine on.
LOL,
j
...when we care for someone and look up to them we give them power...and in turn their words and actions also have power to hurt us...
ReplyDeletei find it helps to have an understanding of their perspective and the source of their own frustration and to understand we all say and do things in our darker moments we ought not to...and that people often project onto us the very things they have trouble looking at in themselves...
when something like this happens to me, it helps take the sting out of the moment by remembering we all have places inside of us that sometimes make an appearance and we can say things we later wish we hadn't...
going deeper into self awareness we can come to a better understanding of where those places are in ourselves and what it is they are trying to tell us about our fears and where we are hurting...it sounds like the person who said these things to you must have a lot of pain in their own life...to understand that isn't to make excuses for it...it's just to see it a little better for what it is...
all that being said...i send you some healing hugs from the heart...sent to you...someone with an obvious sweetness and joy of spirit that could never be kept down for long by someone's careless words, a moment of centering in a darker side of themselves...
Oh, I am so sorry you've been hurt. I'm sure you area already to the place I am about to mention, but just in case, let me remind you that we all speak from our own pain. That thoughtless comment was not about you. It was about the emotions of the speaker. Love anyway. Just love anyway.
ReplyDeleteI know you do.
Thank you all so very much! I am aware that the person who said this to me is not happy with herself. It has nothing to do with me at all. I pray for her and love her unconditionally.
ReplyDeletewhat's sad is that person can be 'too blessed' too.
ReplyDeleteI also believe in blessings. And I believe we manifest them. With our actions, with our hard work, with our attitude and perception.
which you have. You survived a terrible disaster and you guys made the best of it, you did what you had to, you give and support and encourage and inspire.
and I know that saying that it seems that person may be feeling insecure doesn't lessen the hurt for you. I know I would be very stung by that comment- I was stung reading it!
many blessings and hugs to you!!
(and loving the badge! hooray!)
Tabby I hope yer hurt is eased a bit by now, let that mean remark just bounce off yer back like water off of a duck's feathers. It's a puzzle why someone would say something like that, perhaps their mind was perturbed by something that had happened that had nothing to do with you. Hope you feel better.
ReplyDeleteThank you my friends. I do believe she's hurting for decisions she made and was lashing out. I'm over it and know that I should NEVER feel bad for anything God has given me.
ReplyDeleteObviously this person is feeling badly and is saying this out of spite. Remember to just let this go and send them a blessing they may be seeking. You deserve all the blessings the universe has to offer.
ReplyDeleteOh Tabby, I am sorry about this. But sounds like you have risen above this all.And you are a stronger, wiser woman. You truly are a blessed, deserving woman.
ReplyDeleteThank you Deb! I am indeed over it and am moving on.
ReplyDeleteI'm so grateful for you all!
Tabitha, Today is my first time to come to your blog, but already I can tell you are a very kind and loving person. Don't let someone elses insucrities bring you down.
ReplyDeleteSo glad to have met you.
Molly
Dear Tabitha,
ReplyDeleteKnow that you are infinitely worthy and deserving...
The love you gives comes back to you...it has no choice... .This is the physics of the universe...
Love flows like a river.... For every thought, for every action, there is a reaction...
You are worthy of every drop of love in your life...
You are an angel and bring so many to a closer experience of love...
Thank you for all you do,
Keep on keeping on!
Much love, M