The picture above depicts what I felt like this morning. A conversation invaded my mind once again, but this time it left me feeling *Hurt.* For the record I do NOT believe in Luck, however, I totally and completely believe in Blessings. I believe that when we step outside of our comfort zones and reach out to others in need (as God does and desires us to do) we receive his blessings. Whether they are Big or Small they are his way of saying "Good Job."
The other day I was told by someone I love to death that I am too lucky. I replied "Luck has nothing to do with it. I am simply being blessed." Then, I was told "well you are too damned blessed then."
This stung me really hard, because: 1. It was mean, 2. I look up to the person who said it and 3. Its totally untrue!
Why shouldn't I be rewarded by The Father? Why should anyone feel that I am NOT deserving of His blessings?
I AM DESERVING!! I AM!!
I LOVE what I do and the fact that my hubby, daughter and our supporters are with me makes it even better. I wake up everyday planning how I'm going to make someone smile. I go to bed thinking of ideas for the next day. I do this first because HE placed it into my heart. Its what HE desires me to do! Secondly, I simply LOVE doing it. It keeps me smiling and healthy. I'm at TOTAL Peace when I am creating for others.
It is NOT my fault that hubby has a job that provides for us - That's A Blessing
It is NOT my fault that we are good at saving as best we can - It helps us survive
It is NOT my fault that I love reaching out to others instead of focusing on myself - HE Created Me This Way!
This post is so different from what I normally would put up here, but my heart is hurting and I needed to get it out and let it GO. Thank You for reading and understanding.