On yesterday the hubster and I had a very long talk. We've been together for 13 years and through it all there has been bliss and a many number of bumps. The main thing missing was God. We both believed, well I believed. He believed when things were going right. As of this February (when the darkness came) he gave his life to God...Fully. He's taking baby steps (as everyone should), but there is visible progress. We talked about God, our marriage, our mistakes and of course our successes. Our greatest success being our daughter. Although, biologically he is not her dad he has indeed gone above and beyond the definition. Our daughter is a 15 year old who loves reading the bible. She's an A - B student who respects our desires for her life. We have allowed her to learn her own voice and she is indeed impressive. But with one another hubby and I have made great mistakes. We marvel at how our many mistakes have somehow glued us together more-so. We don't make the same mistakes any longer. New ones have taken place, but with God being present we now have better guidance. I had to let go of my notion that he should be exactly how I wanted him to be. He had to let go of the belief that I was this super woman who could never be hurt.
No one can ever say they know what the future holds, but I'm sure there are many more lessons to be learned. Tons of new growth of love to be shared (in whatever way God sees as best). Our discussion ended with us both understanding our roles clearer and seeing God as the leader of this family unit. Then of course many hugs and kisses ensued. :)
Today's Intention and Gift: To walk through this day believing in myself and my hubster. Knowing we will allow The Father to lead us through our journeys.