The Downside:Tuesday was an extremely hard day mentally, which is what lead me to create the prayer meditation mp3. After speaking with my dietitian I now know why Tuesday was so darn emotional for me. I created the stress myself! I was so focused on eating only when I was hungry that I drove myself batty! The more I focused on it the more I wanted to eat. How insane!
The Upside:
I was able to speak with my dietitian who revealed my crazy behavior. I prayed and was so ready for a new day to begin. I did absolutely beautiful on Wednesday and I could not be more grateful. I now know that I should just let my day go as it would normally go. I should not focus on hunger until I actually feel it. I wish my brain had received that memo on Tuesday! This has revealed to me that I still need to work on my control issues. I try very hard to give God full control, but I guess at times I stumble. I can admit that, realize it and change my behavior. I Must rid myself of sleep apnea, so I have work to do. I love that I can write about both my successes and my struggles and still receive tender love from all of you. Thank You!!
I'm Grateful:
-For the encouragement I receive daily
-For my family
-For a kind and loving husband
-For a Merciful and Forgiving Heavenly Father
-That He will lead me to shed these 30 pounds
-That He is strengthening me (mind, body & soul)
-For a new day, new start and new positive thoughts
I suppose I wonder why I have to find my way through such a huge issue as weight loss at all. I mean, I work through it, but the goal is to get it off of me...but I know there's so much more to it and it seems to be heavier than the excess weight I'm working to shed. I don't even know if this makes sense...
ReplyDeleteOh hon....trying to regroup eating is so hard!! So good for you though!! Hang in there. I always try to remember..it's just food..meant to fill my body. I try to find other ways to feed my soul. Pulling for you!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs, Sarah
That's something that brings me back to your blog again and again, Tabby: Your honesty. You are not one of those bloggers who just presents herself and her world as 100% error-free. You show your struggles, too, and I think that helps others who are likewise struggling. Not only does it help readers thru the practical advice you share, but it helps with the guilt feelings they have when they fail, too. I know you have helped me.
ReplyDeleteHolly: For me it was and still is being programmed to eat whenever. I honestly never stopped to ask myself "are you truly hungry?" I just ate because it was there or I was stressing and it was there. De-programming is tough, but I know it can be done. One step and day at a time my friend. We'll get there. (:
ReplyDeleteSarah: It is indeed hard, but I have a POWERFUL source backing me up. Therefore, I can not lose at this. Sending you sweet hugs!
Penniwig: I am so humbled by your words. I would not be a good friend if I made my life look like it was all roses. I struggle as everyone struggles. I want my truth to help others and if I lie I am only hurting people. I could never live with myself if I were to ever directly or indirectly hurt another. I deeply appreciate your contstant support and friendship.
You can do it, darlin'! Weight loss sucks but once you get in the groove, it's easier. I'm at nearly 27lbs down now and though I think about what I eat every day, I don't think TOO much anymore! Keep up the good work!!! xo
ReplyDeleteAh, food. Why does it have to be such an issue? I understand. I need to totally surrender control as well Tabitha.
ReplyDeleteGod help us.
Tabitha, this is a beautiful post. I love how you balance it out with downside, upside and gratitude! You have the tools you need, it's just practicing daily and maintaining constancy is the hardest thing! I wish you so many blessings on your healing journey! ;) Hugs, Sharmila
ReplyDeletep.s. thanks for following my blogs as well ;) It's a pleasure to journey together!
I know this feeling, "I prayed and was so ready for a new day to begin." Often, I am doing great until an attack and then I am so humble and knocked down for 3-4 days, sometimes I even forget until this happens just how conscious I must be to prevent a crisis. Although I don't know your full story yet, I could relate to some things and appreciate your sharing! :)
You're my inspiration, Sending you love and light always dear Tabitha...
ReplyDeletePeace and power,
Maithri
You are wonderful.
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