Forgiveness is something I've been learning more about within these past few months. I never held grudges, but I could hold on to pain as if it were my profession. I did not (at the time) fully understand the complete concept to forgiveness. I did not know the power forgiving someone held with in it. Not so much for the other person, but for myself. As I've mentioned hundreds of times through this blog I did not seriously get into reading the bible until my grandma passed (July 08). I can tell you it was the greatest gift I could ever have given myself, because with it I have learned so much about my Heavenly Father and myself. I've learned of his promises and knowing them brings me such sweet joy. I now have a more structured way to live my life. Do I go to church every Sunday? No I do not. But every morning I pray, read my bible and watch Joyce Meyer and Joel Osteen. These things have guided me to the life I am living now. It is because of Joyce and Joel (through God) that I am almost done with my schooling to become a spiritual counselor.
Reading the Bible is easy. Living the bible can be a true challenge, but I do it to walk with The Lord. Reading the Bible taught me what True Forgiveness was. It is SO HARD to do, but when I did it I felt fabulous! It was as if someone had did magic on me! I was released from all of the negative emotions, hurts and anger that come with being hurt, lied to or betrayed. How can you forgive someone who has betrayed you? Someone who has stolen every ounce of trust you once owned? For me I had to pray hard on it. But, in a few days I knew it was what God needed me to do. If I can not forgive how can I expect Him to forgive me of all my sins? So, for God and for myself I forgave the one who broke my heart and turned him over to God who has been dealing with him ever since. Sometimes I feel sorry for the person who hurt me, because they are now in a serious bind in their life. I understand this person was living in the dark. God is pulling him out of the darkness, but there are painful things he must face as he re-emerges to the light. I pray for him every day and I even encourage him with uplifting words. The old me would have cut him out of my life and prayed that he suffered (just being honest), but the new me could never want that. In finding God I am finding many other things. One of them is how to forgive and why it is imperative that we do so. This revelation has strengthened my bond with God. It has freed me to live a life of joy and of peace. I deserve this. God, the Father says this is His will for us. Who am I to argue with The Creator right? So, I forgive and in return God has shared more of His light with me. For that I am eternally grateful.
I want to hear from you: How did you handle forgiving someone who wronged you? Did you find peace in forgiving him/her?