I Will Be Made Whole [4.19.12]

"It was not because of his sins or his parents' sins," Jesus answered. "This happened so the power of God could be seen in him.  -John 9:3

There have been many moments in my life where I've cried behind my birth defects.  As a kid I'd often ask God why?  I couldn't understand why everyone else could ride bikes during the summertime, but I could not.  I'd often fear I'd never become a mom or get married.  Yes, many days I wondered "why did this happen?"

In October of 2008 I purchased my very own bible and began to devour the book of John.  Upon reading John 9 I began to read a story where Jesus and his disciples came upon a man whom was blind.  Jesus' disciples wanted to know if the man was blind because of a sin committed by the man or his parents.  For me this was HUGE and I sat at complete attention as I read Jesus' answer to them.  "It was not because of his sins or his parents' sins," Jesus answered. "This happened so the power of God could be seen in him." [John 9:3]

Oh thank you Lord! I shouted with great relief, because NOW I had my answer!  And it was the most freeing answer I could have ever received.  I immediately called my dad and read this passage to him and asked him to free himself from all of the self-guilt he had been holding onto all of these years.  It was not his fault!  It was not my mom's fault!  I was not being punished, but rather being used by my heavenly Father to show his TRUE goodness through my life.  And if you truly knew me as my family and close friends do you'd understand just how big this verse mirrors my story.

God has used me in many ways.  I even believe he's used my life without me ever truly seeing the after effects.  I have a God given purpose in this world.  YOU have a God given purpose in this world.  The Bible tells me that one-day I'll dwell in a perfect, flawless body.  All of my limbs will be right where they should be.  I even like to think that one day I will be able to go on a bike ride with Jesus, himself.  My body has flaws, but my spirit is just as it should be.  And one day soon I will be made whole and you'll know, because I will be the bike-riding, acrobat in heaven screaming, "Look what He did for me!"