Loving Others As
Yourself by Tabitha D 4.6.12
And you must love
the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all
your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as
yourself.’ No other commandment is
greater than these.” -Mark 12:30-31
Since truly getting
to know God loving him has been a no brainer.
The first part of this command was easy as pie, but it was the second
part, which stopped me dead in my tracks.
Not because I couldn't love others, but in order to truly love them I
had to love them as I loved myself.
That was a problem for me, because up until my daughter was born I
deeply disliked myself. I won't delve
into whom or what even lead me to this, but I will say it was alive and breathing
within me daily.
Everyone would
always comment on how beautiful my daughter is and she is, but it didn't
register that I was beautiful as well.
Until one day my aunt said, "Jo is so beautiful! Girl, she looks
just like you!" I went home and
stared in my mirror and it hit me! My
daughter is amazingly beautiful and if she looks just like me I must be
amazingly beautiful as well.
That lifted me up
for a few years until I did some things that now lead me to dislike myself from
the inside. Manipulation and selfish
behavior made not for a beautiful woman.
I knew my behavior was wrong, but still believed I was justified by what
others had done to me. What did I
learn? Two wrongs will NEVER make a
right.
I guess God
couldn't take any more because he stepped in and made his presence KNOWN. He sat me in front of his spiritual mirror
and showed me how he had envisioned my life going. He showed me my faults and it was painful. As time went on I began to desire to be more
like Jesus. I wanted to look like him,
love like him, speak like him and live like him. That prayer started coming to life and with each new day I fell
in love with the new me. I learned just
how much God truly loved me and that lead me to truly loving myself. The me that He wants me to be is alive and
she's flourishing daily.
How could I not
love myself when I'm walking in the very footsteps of my Lord and Savior? Today I can completely love others as I love
myself, because God has released the real me from darkness. Every day I pray and declare that I will
love and see everyone as our heavenly Father does. At first I stumbled, but now I do it with great ease. All because my Father showed up and showed me
how to truly walk out Mark 12:31