Walk In The Light

At the beginning of this year I declared that this would be MY Year! I know what I desire to see and I'm going after it!

What do I desire?

-I desire to lose over 30 pounds this year
-I desire to strengthen my relationship with God
-I desire to be Open to All Good things that are Headed My way!
-I desire to help others live their Best life as well.

I've been cooking healthy (meatless) meals for my family for over a month now. My sister Kelly had me make a dish for her to take to work several times. Her boss asked her about the dishes because they liked them and she explained that I cooked them. She told her of my journey and my desires. Her boss called and asked to meet with me! I went and what she proposed was simply Astounding!! She offered me a chef position!! I'll be cooking a healthy lunch four days a week for her employees! Apparently she went to them first and asked if they'd like the idea and she said it was a unanimous Yes!

I KNEW things were going to change, but I had no idea it would be this Outstanding!! Walk in the light and Your Path will Always be Clear!

Becoming The LOVE Of My Life

For far too long I believed the #1 loves of my life were my daughter and my husband. As I've been truly getting to know me I find that I am the number #1 love of my life. I don't mean this in a cocky way either. I just finally understand that the ONLY person who can love you unconditionally. The ONLY person who can truly set your heart ablaze (aside from God) is YOU! Can you imagine the STRESS that is placed upon husbands and wives when they try to make others happy 24/7? They do this because WE have placed that job upon them without realizing it was NEVER supposed to be their job!

To be happy. I mean Cup Overflowing! To achieve this and to experience it day in and day out WE must be the ONE to make it happen! NO Human on earth can offer you this better than YOU!

In 2016 I decided it was time to get REAL with Myself! But, that was done half-heartedly. I wasn't being honest about everything! That all changed towards the middle of 2017. Something snapped and every question I asked myself came with brutal honesty. What I learned was WE are too good at lying to ourselves! Lying is wrong in any situation, BUT when you are lying to yourself you hinder your OWN growth! If You are not willing to be uncomfortable you risk not growing.

I got Honest with myself. I resolved that I would NEVER lie to myself again. I decided that no matter how uncomfortable I felt I would work through it and come out wiser on the other side! I had long ago stopped trying to be who OTHERS wanted me to be. Now it was time to be REAL about who I wanted to Truly be! The answer has Always been right in front of my eyes. I ignored it because it made me fearful. Fearful of failing. But, I fail when I never Try! So, here we are in 2018 and it's time to do what I KNOW I was created to do!

Don't be afraid to dream. Don't be afraid to grow. And Most of All NEVER be Afraid to Fall in Love with Yourself! Becoming the Love of Your Own Life is just as Natural as breathing. It's how it was meant to be, for You are the Only One who can do it the way God intended it! So, step out of your comfort zone! Ask yourself some soul searching questions and don't be afraid to answer honestly. You'll be Amazed at what's revealed! Here's to Endless Possibilities in 2018!! 😊

Getting To Know Myself

Right now I’m focusing on healing myself (mind, body and soul). This means I need to give myself more of my time. So, I’m working on that. To some it’s going to seem selfish, but it’s only selfish to them because they won’t be benefiting from it. I have Always been a nurturer, but now I need to give that gift to Tabitha (Me). She matters. She deserves this now more than ever! She’s worthy of attention, affection and dedication. This is My Year! I WILL Fall in Love with Me Daily and I WON’T feel guilty for making myself a Priority!

Before changing the way I ate I was overweight, had severe bowel issues and I had a sugar addiction. Sugar was a huge trigger and it sent me spiraling! After I changed things up the sugar addiction melted away. I can NOT explain the why's, but I simply love that it is!

I have raised my daughter and I'll always be here for her, but I Need to Assure this will be the case! I need to put my needs first. I need to put more focus on myself and continue to heal my entire being. As a mom there is always a twinge of guilt, but my daughter tells me it's time. She will soon be 23 and she insists I focus on myself more.

I'm grateful to have such support! I'm SUPER Excited for what's to come!

Gratitudes:

*A beautiful day at home with my family on this cold day

*I get to eat the most yummy foods

*I have the Love of God guiding me daily

My Word for 2018

After reading "My One Word" I decided to have a Physical & Spiritual word for 2018!
My Physical word is Committed: I'll be committed to Myself (mentally, physically & emotionally), to God and to those I love. I'll be committed to every task I take on while being committed to ONLY taking on the tasks I KNOW are meant for me.

My Spiritual word is Ambitious: I will be ambitious in my prayer life. I will stand STRONG in what I Believe (REFUSING to Waiver). I will be DETERMINED in my way of thinking & what I'm believing God WILL do in 2018 and Beyond! I will be FORCEFUL in my Faith in God and in Myself. I Will FIGHT against any force (in Prayer) that tries to come against Me & Any of God's Children. I WILL be VICTORIOUS through the Blood & Name of Jesus!!! Happy New Year!!

Changing Me From The Inside

Many will read this and think I've gone bonkers, but I finally feel completely SANE! On December 17th I instantly decided to NEVER again eat meat, milk or eggs. I never doubted my decision. It just felt RIGHT. I was a little uneasy about telling my family, but I was Committed and there was NO turning back! I told my family and immediately my daughter was on board! My big guy was a bit hesitant as he still wanted meat. I NEVER forced this upon them, but made it clear I HAD to do this for myself. They fully understood!

Before changing how I ate I battled severe acid reflux, arthritis in my neck, leg and back. Arthritis for anyone is Hell on Earth, but for a being who only has 1 arm and 1 leg it can be an extra special kind of Hell on Earth! After only two days of not eating meat I noticed there weren't any flare ups. I decided that this was wishful thinking and went on my way. After a week I started to believe this was truly happening! 

I was belching a LOT, but I wasn't having acid burn my poor esophagus to all be damned. I took Bean No for TWO days and the belching was history. Many say it's because my body has become accustomed to the amount of veggies I'm taking in. Whatever it is I'm okay with it! Knowing what I know a month later I don't regret my decision one bit! I feel amazing AND I'm Losing Weight WITHOUT Trying!!! I can't beat that on my BEST day!

I have Always LOVED Cooking, but now I'm in LOVE with cooking! We eat such amazing dishes! Ones I would have NEVER thought of before! Oh! The most amazing thing is my A1C went from 6.5 to 5.0!!  

Everyone lives there lives for Their OWN Reasons. My reasons are simple: 1. I want to LIVE and 2. I desire not to harm animals or the environment in which I live. I can Guarantee you THIS I will NEVER push my way of living upon anyone! I will not be judging folk because they are eating meat! I MUST focus on My Walk in Life! I pray for All Beings and that's as far as it goes. It's NOT my job to turn folk Vegan or Whole Food Eaters! So, if you're interested like I am to see where this leads me please stay tuned! I'll be sharing my ups and downs in life, my funny moments, poetry, my spiritual journey and my random thoughts! God Bless & Happy New Year!